Any Minute Now

Have you ever waited so long for something that when it finally came your excitment had turned to indifference and you really could care less if it had come at all? That is how I feel these last few days.

I'm awful about pumping myself up for things and holding onto unattainable expectations, only to be sorely disappointed in the end. You would think that I would know better by now, but it seems that sometimes you have to fall on your face about 20+ times before it finally sinks into that lead-thick skull. At this point if I continue to hold my breath it'll be Christmas, and I'll have long since expired!

So you know what? To hell with it! And no I didn't stutter!

Forever And A Day

Today has been two months that Thumper and I have been together. I can hardly believe it. It's strange though, you hear people say, "Time flies when you're having fun" but these last two months have felt like the longest months of my life. Now that's not to say that these last two months have not been fun, because that would be a lie. I have never felt so happy. And this happiness is not sporatic, only happening a few days out of the month. I feel this way on a daily basis now. Of course though I could not allow myself to enjoy this feeling. I had to go and ruin it. I've had a few nightmares now that we've broken up without any real rhyme or reason, one of those "just-because" happenings. But I don't anticipate this to become a reality.

The last time I felt this alive seems like so long ago. To admit that makes me feel a little sad though. I feel ashamed to say that I wasted so much time being unhappy over someone, and then held onto that unhappiness until just now. I don't always recall feeling unhappy, but when I compare how I feel now to days past, there is no other way to categorize how I felt except to say I was unhappy.

Time is so precious. It is one of the most precious things we have. In the blink of an eye time is lost forever, and within that fraction of a second you can change your life either for good or for bad. Here today, and gone tomorrow.

So who cares if these summer days are long and lazy? That just gives me more time to spend with my hunny!

Happy Birthday Thumper!

This blog is a little late. Thumper's birthday was actually on the 13th, but he has such a big family that by the time they were all done taking turns celebrating with him, none of the picture were actually of him on his actual birthday. This was Sabbath afternoon at Muddah's house for the cookout. Here he is, handsome as ever, despite the head shot, blowing out his candles. He's 23 not 3!

For The Record

I am a woman, not a retard, so please don't treat me like one! Thank you!

I Am. . . .

I am your waitress, nutritionist, and therapist.

I am your dermatologist, pharmacist, computer analyst, and marital counselor.

I am your mechanic, stylist, and sex therapist.

I am you financial adviser, insurance broker, and personal assist.

At times you'd think my name badge reads G.O.D.

It's strange, I don't recall going to school for all this.

"Good evening, my name is Patti."

"I am your nurse for tonight."

The Truth Is Out There!

It's about time! 10 years after the first movie was released David Duchovny and Jillian Anderson have finally come together again for the second X-Files movie which will hit theathers sometime toward the end of July!

I was standing at a patient's bedside the other night, pushing some Dilaudid, when I glanced up at the TV where the patient had been watching one of those entertainment news shows. Apparently I came in the room just at the right time to hear the news. For a few years now I had heard rumors that the movie was in the making but those rumors were always overshadowed with another rumor that David Duchovny wasn't interested in doing another movie, although supposedly he had originally signed a contract to do 2 movies while he was filming the first movie.

Anyway, of course this movie has all the typical X-Files elements - aliens, government conspiracy, and the continuing secret romance between Mulder and Scully! Yeah!

Now I'm sure the next thing you're thinking is, "Patti, an X-Files fan?!" Yup! Back in the day I had David Duchovny as Special Agent Fox Mulder plastered all over my bedroom walls, and I'd wait with bated breath all evening till it was time for Dad and I to settle down and watch the show. And yeah sometimes it was scary - but I ain't no baby!

So needlesstosay I'm siked that they are finally getting their acts together to entertain us once again. I smell a date night!