Forever And A Day

Today has been two months that Thumper and I have been together. I can hardly believe it. It's strange though, you hear people say, "Time flies when you're having fun" but these last two months have felt like the longest months of my life. Now that's not to say that these last two months have not been fun, because that would be a lie. I have never felt so happy. And this happiness is not sporatic, only happening a few days out of the month. I feel this way on a daily basis now. Of course though I could not allow myself to enjoy this feeling. I had to go and ruin it. I've had a few nightmares now that we've broken up without any real rhyme or reason, one of those "just-because" happenings. But I don't anticipate this to become a reality.

The last time I felt this alive seems like so long ago. To admit that makes me feel a little sad though. I feel ashamed to say that I wasted so much time being unhappy over someone, and then held onto that unhappiness until just now. I don't always recall feeling unhappy, but when I compare how I feel now to days past, there is no other way to categorize how I felt except to say I was unhappy.

Time is so precious. It is one of the most precious things we have. In the blink of an eye time is lost forever, and within that fraction of a second you can change your life either for good or for bad. Here today, and gone tomorrow.

So who cares if these summer days are long and lazy? That just gives me more time to spend with my hunny!